A bigger belly, lesser productive?

Oh gee, I am getting a bigger belly, it is more obvious after the first trimester. The mixture of frightening and expectating feeling comes back to me.

Today I left office around 7:20pm, I felt a bit weird when all colleague around me were still working hard. I know that the value of a staff is not merely calculated by the length of time he/she devotes to the job, but the efficiency, loyalty and dedication the one shows, however, I just worry how do my bosses perceive me, will they think I am a less productive staff?

I know I should be a positive thinker, especially during my maternity... but I need more time to adjust my way of thinking...

Oh God, give me a direction!

Battlefield by Sogo

Sogo is having a big sale and we girls gathered at Samantha's cubicle to read those price cut leaftlets, the items look so attractive especially for those skin care products. However, my colleague suggested me not to go, there is not a safe place of pregnant woman. It is because there will be packed with fierce women, who look so elegant always will become bitches and strive for all sale items, they will push away everyone in front of them and fight for everything there.... Sounds so horrible!!

Matrix is GREAT

Matrix ! I like this movie so much! But this time I will be (one of ) the director , editor , producer evening an actor in this movie.
Yes , I will be one of the editors of this blog, give a view other than the "Matrix" for this live film.
In the film , matrix is everything . It is same as a mother's body for a baby. The main differene is no one designs this "Matrix" and this "Matrix" is evolved form another "Matrix" .
About thevmind problem, it's really a very difficult question, something , you may feel a cat even an ant have mind , but sometime you meet some people who don't have mind ......

I am no longer walking alone, literally!

Because nowv I am carrying a baby beneath my tummy. It's already a 3-months unborn little life. Frankly speaking, I only started to have emotional attachment to it when I saw its outlook in the ultrasound pictures last Friday. It's growing to be a human form little creature, with big head, small body and slender limbs, and most organs.

Does it have soul? How can we identify whether an unborn baby has mind? And how about fetus? Fetus is just a bit complicated than a cell, could it think? I am not sure.

This is a really complicated philosophical questions.

What's Manki's Matrix?

Manki's Matrix doesn't relate to A.I., computer science, maths, chemical model, Zion or Mr. Anderson. It means my pregnant body. Yes, suddenly I become a mother-to-be. Frankly, it is a bit shocking for me in the very initial stage, but should be a great news, isn't it? I am experiencing the beautiful natural event under my skin!

Therefore, Manki's Matrix is formed. My body now is plugging a little baby, it drains my energy and nutrients aggressively, it is so raw, so uncivilized, and so amazing!