I feel bad because I have only spent less than an hour to my baby in last two days. I came back home at 10pm and baby slept at 10 something. I don't want to be like this.
Baby needs mommy, so does my family.
It gets back to the starting point - how to achieve the balance of life?
I feel totally exhausted, being a mom and a working person is very tough, both physically and psychologically.
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Thursday, September 21, 2006
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
BB drinks 6 oz.
BB is growing bigger and now can drink more. He can have 6 oz. milk in a feeding. Lucas, good job!!
It is worth to continue the breast-feeding.
Last weekend BB became friend with me again. On Friday he screamed when I carried him, let alone feeding him. It was really heart-breaking. Luckily in weekend I spent most time with him and now he attaches to me if I am at home.
Starting from 4 months he could take other food, such as juices and rice cereal. It is funny that he will stare at you if you eat in front of him, then his mouth will move and try to follow what you do.
It is worth to continue the breast-feeding.
Last weekend BB became friend with me again. On Friday he screamed when I carried him, let alone feeding him. It was really heart-breaking. Luckily in weekend I spent most time with him and now he attaches to me if I am at home.
Starting from 4 months he could take other food, such as juices and rice cereal. It is funny that he will stare at you if you eat in front of him, then his mouth will move and try to follow what you do.
Sunday, September 17, 2006
Thursday, September 14, 2006
Miss Lucas terribly
I do wish to put down all my works and rush back home immediately to see my adorable baby.
If impossible, at least I want to scream loudly to release my sadness inside.
I understand why many crazy men love to yell in the public and scare everyone.
Baby, how come you don't let mom to feed you.... just before bed but you still refuse?
It's really heart-breaking.
If impossible, at least I want to scream loudly to release my sadness inside.
I understand why many crazy men love to yell in the public and scare everyone.
Baby, how come you don't let mom to feed you.... just before bed but you still refuse?
It's really heart-breaking.
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
Hurray!!
Ho Yeah, I get back to my pre-pregnancy weight!!
I think I will be even thinner than before if I keep breast-feeding baby. I will name this as 'the vampire effect'!
Okay, I know you concern Lucas more than me. Don't worry, he is in good shape as usual, very energetic and talkative. He screamed to my sister last time and made her a bit upset, and he screamed to Jeff when he tried to force-feeding him.
Lucas has such as strong and distinctive personality. Parenting him would be a big challenge.
I think I will be even thinner than before if I keep breast-feeding baby. I will name this as 'the vampire effect'!
Okay, I know you concern Lucas more than me. Don't worry, he is in good shape as usual, very energetic and talkative. He screamed to my sister last time and made her a bit upset, and he screamed to Jeff when he tried to force-feeding him.
Lucas has such as strong and distinctive personality. Parenting him would be a big challenge.
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Poo Poo
My brother-in-law shared an experience with me: When he was not a father, he could not believe how his friend felt so happy simply because his baby had pooed, and even talked with his family through phone in the middle of the meeting. He thought it was weird.
Then, one day, he became someone's father, he totally felt that friend.
I could feel his friend also because many baby has difficulty to pass motion everyday. If he/she had not pooed for several days, you would worry so much.
It's good that Lucas is very healthy right now.
Then, one day, he became someone's father, he totally felt that friend.
I could feel his friend also because many baby has difficulty to pass motion everyday. If he/she had not pooed for several days, you would worry so much.
It's good that Lucas is very healthy right now.
Sunday, September 03, 2006
The 100th entry in Manki's Matrix!!
Hurray, I have written 100 entries in Manki's Martrix!!!
BTW, Lucas can lie on his stomach this week, see how cute he is!
Friday, September 01, 2006
Thursday, August 31, 2006
Rash
Gosh, Lucas had rashes all over his body this early morning, right after the milk powder feeding. We sent him to the hospital immediately. The doc couldn't confirm what caused it but we all suspected he has allergy to the milk powder.
That means that I cannot stop breast-feeding, at least within this month.
This is the first time he has serious illness, I stayed at home to take of him. He gets well now and is very talkative.
That means that I cannot stop breast-feeding, at least within this month.
This is the first time he has serious illness, I stayed at home to take of him. He gets well now and is very talkative.
Monday, August 28, 2006
Lucas is stepping into the 4th month
Lucas looks so happy these few days.
Friends came to visit him in the last few weekends, everyone like him a lot. I couldn't believe that he becomes so popular. Last time after the Yum Cha in Shatin, an old lady jumped in front of us and said she recognized Lucas because everytime she went to that restaurant she could meet him there, I guess that old lady would go there for Yum Cha on every Sunday in order to see him.
And, you can make friends easily if having a baby in your arms. Waitresses love to talk with me if I bring Lucas along.
I was going to stop breast-feeding because my health condition is deteriorating, but I really don't wanna give up, now I discover that the nutrients could be restored back to my body by simply pumping out lesser milk. Now I adopt this method and look better apparently in these two days.
I bought Lucas to my parent's house yesterday, my aunt, uncle and cousins were also there. When we left, all of them waved Lucas cheerfully, but not a single one bothered to say good-bye to me.....
Saturday, August 19, 2006
Outgoing Baby
Lucas gets bored to a place easily, everyday he should go out for a walk.
Two weeks ago we bought him to Sai Kung with my family. It was his first time seeing sea. He was stunned by the tremendous blue water and stared everywhere enthusiastically.
Lucas has strong curiousity. When he grows bigger, I will bring him to countryside, to appreciate the beauty of nature.
By the way, he also has Monday blues, because we take him out during weekends, he supposes we will do it on Monday also......
Two weeks ago we bought him to Sai Kung with my family. It was his first time seeing sea. He was stunned by the tremendous blue water and stared everywhere enthusiastically.
Lucas has strong curiousity. When he grows bigger, I will bring him to countryside, to appreciate the beauty of nature.
By the way, he also has Monday blues, because we take him out during weekends, he supposes we will do it on Monday also......
Monday, August 14, 2006
Dancing Horror
Lucas is a clever kid, he knows how to manipulate his parents.
Maybe he knows I feel guilty for leaving him at home and go out for work in the work days, he loves to bully me in weekends. However, I still feel very happy that he still wants me to carry him, at least that means he likes to attach me.
It was funny that I scared him by my crazy dance.
Last night, after the feeding at 10pm, Jeff asked me to dance in front of Lucas to make him smile. I shaked every part of my body strongly with a little dumb bell. Lucas stared at me for several seconds and suddenly screamed and bursted into tears. I stopped dancing immediately and hugging him at once. Lucas always cried but did not have tears everytime, but this time, I guessed he was really panic.
After a few minutes, Lucas calmed down and Jeff performed Yoga, he smiled again.
Maybe he knows I feel guilty for leaving him at home and go out for work in the work days, he loves to bully me in weekends. However, I still feel very happy that he still wants me to carry him, at least that means he likes to attach me.
It was funny that I scared him by my crazy dance.
Last night, after the feeding at 10pm, Jeff asked me to dance in front of Lucas to make him smile. I shaked every part of my body strongly with a little dumb bell. Lucas stared at me for several seconds and suddenly screamed and bursted into tears. I stopped dancing immediately and hugging him at once. Lucas always cried but did not have tears everytime, but this time, I guessed he was really panic.
After a few minutes, Lucas calmed down and Jeff performed Yoga, he smiled again.
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
Should I give up??
Gosh, my allergy comes back. Everytime right after I pump out the milk, my skin becomes reddish, my eyes are swollen, and last night, my finger joints are itchy.... My body sends me signal that I am overloaded, but when everytime I look at my chubby Lucas, I don't want to give up breast-feeding.
If I know how to find an equilibrium point, I know when to make a rational decision.
Monday, August 07, 2006
Stepping into the third month
Come and see how cute Lucas is...
http://picasaweb.google.com/chiyuen/3Months
You can also visit the following link to see all albums since he is born:
http://picasaweb.google.com/chiyuen
Stretch Mark
Well, there is a vertical strecth mark about 1 cm long appears in the left side of my tummy, which caused by the pregnancy. Comparing with some mothers who have spider like stretch marks all over the belly, I am very lucky.
However, I still feel it is very obvious, I am going to put some tattoo on it, such as a star, a rose, or even a baby doll, etc.
I am also thinking about having a naval ring...
Okay, all these are just thoughts, which may hardly come true, because Jeff will kill me...
However, I still feel it is very obvious, I am going to put some tattoo on it, such as a star, a rose, or even a baby doll, etc.
I am also thinking about having a naval ring...
Okay, all these are just thoughts, which may hardly come true, because Jeff will kill me...
Monday, July 31, 2006
A Java Program for Pumping Breast Milk Feeding and Storage optimization
Ha the title like a PhD thesis ?! yes it is very serious and complicate problem!
I wrote a Java program that help breast feeding mother to organize their pump out milk and optimized the storage to ensure baby to best fresh milk to drink.
Non programming background people are able to read and understand this program.
For programmer , plave help me to complete the unfinished part and debug it.
Thanks
//it is matrix ; the milk producer
public class mother extends earth.livingcreature.human{
private double energy ;
// internal energy of mother , it will convert to milk
public double milk_produce_happy_level=32 ;
//in oz mother will feel happy if she pump out 32 oz a day
protected milk pumping(){};
//an exhaust function call for mother ,she pumping milk herself , should be protected function , only the person close to her allow stay inside the room while pumping
private energy eating(){};
// an energy input function
private energy transfer() ;
//and energy transfer function , it convert energy to milk;
}
public class Baby externed earth.livingcreature.human{
//it is a milk consumer
private double weight, length, head_circumference ;
// main index to measure a baby development
private milk_consuming_per_day=25 oz
// father and mother will feel happy if baby drink above this level
public Poopoo poo_poo(){};
// he do it very public , best time is changing diaper!
public Emergy drink(Milk milk){};
// a drink milk function ,and generate poo poo object
public Happy play(){};
//this function will generated baby sound such as "gue,ong-gu.." and a wonderful smile...., oh how come this class more like my tamaguchi program that wrote in year 1
private sleep() ; //lucas so seldom to call this function...
}
public class Milk extends earth.liningcreature.human.monther{
//it is the sub class of mother , cos mother generated fresh milk
/* below parameter as best for immune level in a milk*/
int frozen_max_allow=2 month's;
/* standard is 3 month at 0 degree*/;
int refrigerated _max_allow=48 hrs;
/* standard is 72 hr*/
int immune_degree
/* it is only provided from breast milk, it will lose 30-40% during frozen and thawed process, and decrease as time pass so we should try to give fresh milk to baby asap after
mother.pump() ,and freeze as an option while have extra milk. However frozen milk is still provide more 60% immune than formula milk
*/
int cool_min_storage= 30oz;
/*oz baby will consume around 25 oz per day, you keep extra 5 refrigerated milk;
}
public refrigerator(){
int current_storage ;/* current storage in lower part of refrigerator*/
int frozen _storage; /* current freezed milk storage, it help mother to finished the bumping more early*/
public static keep(Milk milk){
//it is a very complicate algorithm to optimize the storage fresh milk
if(current_storage>Milk.cool_min_storage){
frozen (milk);
}else {
refrigerate(milk);
}
}
public static Milk take(){
Milk milk=take_earest_milk();
while(milk.isExipred()){
milk.dump();
//What a pity function call , but we should call it to ensure baby have good quality milk
milk=take_earest_milk();
// ok it is a recursive function call, until we get a good non-expire milk in our standard
}
if(current_storage<Milk.cool_min_storage){
thawed(Milk milk);
/*thawed a frozen milk from the frozen storage to current_storage ensure have enough milk provide;
}
return(milk);
}
}
I wrote a Java program that help breast feeding mother to organize their pump out milk and optimized the storage to ensure baby to best fresh milk to drink.
Non programming background people are able to read and understand this program.
For programmer , plave help me to complete the unfinished part and debug it.
Thanks
//it is matrix ; the milk producer
public class mother extends earth.livingcreature.human{
private double energy ;
// internal energy of mother , it will convert to milk
public double milk_produce_happy_level=32 ;
//in oz mother will feel happy if she pump out 32 oz a day
protected milk pumping(){};
//an exhaust function call for mother ,she pumping milk herself , should be protected function , only the person close to her allow stay inside the room while pumping
private energy eating(){};
// an energy input function
private energy transfer() ;
//and energy transfer function , it convert energy to milk;
}
public class Baby externed earth.livingcreature.human{
//it is a milk consumer
private double weight, length, head_circumference ;
// main index to measure a baby development
private milk_consuming_per_day=25 oz
// father and mother will feel happy if baby drink above this level
public Poopoo poo_poo(){};
// he do it very public , best time is changing diaper!
public Emergy drink(Milk milk){};
// a drink milk function ,and generate poo poo object
public Happy play(){};
//this function will generated baby sound such as "gue,ong-gu.." and a wonderful smile...., oh how come this class more like my tamaguchi program that wrote in year 1
private sleep() ; //lucas so seldom to call this function...
}
public class Milk extends earth.liningcreature.human.monther{
//it is the sub class of mother , cos mother generated fresh milk
/* below parameter as best for immune level in a milk*/
int frozen_max_allow=2 month's;
/* standard is 3 month at 0 degree*/;
int refrigerated _max_allow=48 hrs;
/* standard is 72 hr*/
int immune_degree
/* it is only provided from breast milk, it will lose 30-40% during frozen and thawed process, and decrease as time pass so we should try to give fresh milk to baby asap after
mother.pump() ,and freeze as an option while have extra milk. However frozen milk is still provide more 60% immune than formula milk
*/
int cool_min_storage= 30oz;
/*oz baby will consume around 25 oz per day, you keep extra 5 refrigerated milk;
}
public refrigerator(){
int current_storage ;/* current storage in lower part of refrigerator*/
int frozen _storage; /* current freezed milk storage, it help mother to finished the bumping more early*/
public static keep(Milk milk){
//it is a very complicate algorithm to optimize the storage fresh milk
if(current_storage>Milk.cool_min_storage){
frozen (milk);
}else {
refrigerate(milk);
}
}
public static Milk take(){
Milk milk=take_earest_milk();
while(milk.isExipred()){
milk.dump();
//What a pity function call , but we should call it to ensure baby have good quality milk
milk=take_earest_milk();
// ok it is a recursive function call, until we get a good non-expire milk in our standard
}
if(current_storage<Milk.cool_min_storage){
thawed(Milk milk);
/*thawed a frozen milk from the frozen storage to current_storage ensure have enough milk provide;
}
return(milk);
}
}
Sunday, July 30, 2006
You are my booster!
A lovely Sunday even it rains heavily outside.
My angel is still sleeping, he sleeps peacefully and sweet. He is so cute and makes me smile.
How come the rain last for a few seconds only?? It's sunny now...
Lucas is 2 months old now. I had lots of ups and downs in past 2 months. My emotion was like a roller coaster. Everytime when I was upset, I reminded myself I am a lucky person after all, I have a perfect husband and a lovely baby, but I still broke into tears many times.
Luckily, Jeff brought me to consult a Chinese medical practitioner, and he diagnosed that my health condition was extremely poor and lack of rest, this also explained why I had nightmare every night. After taking the medicine he prescribed several times, now I feel much better and am stronger.
My angel is still sleeping, he sleeps peacefully and sweet. He is so cute and makes me smile.
How come the rain last for a few seconds only?? It's sunny now...
Lucas is 2 months old now. I had lots of ups and downs in past 2 months. My emotion was like a roller coaster. Everytime when I was upset, I reminded myself I am a lucky person after all, I have a perfect husband and a lovely baby, but I still broke into tears many times.
Luckily, Jeff brought me to consult a Chinese medical practitioner, and he diagnosed that my health condition was extremely poor and lack of rest, this also explained why I had nightmare every night. After taking the medicine he prescribed several times, now I feel much better and am stronger.
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