Contradiction

People always have complicated feeling.

Like me, I am still expecting my baby, I do hope he will come out soon, but at the same time, I really miss the freedom now I am enjoying. Once Lucas is born, I should be fully engaged to him.

Sometimes when I observe other mothers, I find many mothers are neurotic, sensitive and long-tongue. Every single moment they just focus on the little devil and keep asking them to eat, to behave well, etc, etc. Other groups of mothers are motionless, even their kids mess up the public area or scream endlessly, they don't move any strand of their hair.

I don't want to be any group of them, I just want to be normal.